my fingers
press, slowly
as i start.
i have an idea
of what to think of;
my “theme” for the night
that will get me
to finish.
as i get more into it-
the thought-
i go a little faster.
it’s coming out so smoothy
and quickly;
coming out of me
so naturally.
i’m putting out
one on one
and it feels so good-
so therapeutic.
since i have no one else to share
myself with,
no one i feel comfortable
with
i’m able to be so naked; so open-
it’s just me on me.
i won’t judge myself
or how good i am at it
my fingers as my instrument
with my mind leading it
to its goal of total release
creating scenes
in my mind-
thinking of instances that have already happened
and fantasies that would make it sound
even better.
some people think its weird-
this kind of thing-
but i’m so good at it
why would i stop?
maybe i should keep my thoughts to myself
and stop fingering these keys
but…it….feels…so…good
when it leaks out of me;
typing my thoughts out
now…what were you thinking about??
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The title had me intrigued…I knew it was gonna be an interesting collection of words, nothing sexual…but as I started reading, my indignation took off and I’ll leave that one alone (for now) hehe lol…this was good!