you know, you broke my heart again
tonight.
it wasn’t the kind of broken heart
when you walked away from me
with a wink
telling me it was over,
and we were over,
forever.
you broke my heart
tonight
with the realization
that no matter
how close we may get
no matter how many phone calls
my phone receives
with the ring tone
designated for you
no matter how many texts
or voice mails
that you leave
i will never get close to you-
i will never know you-
the way i used to.
you keep throwing around
the phrase
“i love you”
how can you?
how can you not know
after all this time
the confusion you cause
and the love you draw
out of me, from within me.
tonight, on the way home
from the city
on the van wyck
i passed our high school
and so many songs
played on the radio
and so many memories
played out in my mind
and so many thoughts
raced through my head
and there was so much pain
inside my heart.
its just an organ, i know.
its just a part of my body
that pumps blood, i know.
but it keeps me alive
and without it,
i am nothing.
without my heart,
and the valves,
i am nothing-
nonexistent,
dead.
and that’s how i feel without you.
time keeps ticking
and i keep wishing
that it will fall into place.
but i’m tired
and its 4 in the morning
and its 5 years later
and nothings changed.
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